Hesitation!

We've all had a moment's hesitation I'm sure, but what happens when we have say a week of that feeling or even a month?   I've been contemplating what more I can do or be to glorify our Heavenly Father, and I'm not talking about earning my salvation.  Then on the other hand, I feel that I'm already not getting accomplished what I feel is important.  Although I'm already out of hands, then I consider that what I truly want to do is just spend more time with Abba, and not even deal with the world . . .

This has been an odd couple of weeks here at the homestead.  Perhaps in the rain, I've spent too much time perusing social media.  I see folks talking about "bug-out bags" refurbishing big vehicles to make bug-out buses.  I also see plenty of posts about dreams of finding stashes, and the comments about manna.  I found myself suddenly sitting here in deep contemplation about how many people are making plans to mobilize and planning on miraculous provision.  I found myself wondering if I need to be more like these folks. 

Here I'm thinking the Winnebago will be used here in a community setting, as living space for say a single person or a couple.  As I'm working in the garden, I wonder if I'm operating in wisdom or zeal . . . hopefully both and in that order.  I think of those who "know" they will be supplied by other's supplies, and that in all honesty causes me to wince just a bit.  Then I think of the number of references I see to manna and "another Exodus."  I've wondered if I'm missing something . . . 

Y'hshuwah spoke of "as in the days of Noah," and no mention of "the days of Moses."  As for a "second Exodus" I'm not so sure.  In Exodus, the children of Israel walked out not only with all their belongings, but a great deal of the valuables of the Egyptians, whereas Matthew mentions "fleeing with basically no provision."  I don't have a bug-out bag because I believe this is where I'm supposed to be.  I've thought this would be a place of gathering for those who are preparing, but to be honest, at this point, I'm not sure.   I can get very busy, just being busy!  

For the past few weeks, I've vacillated between various thoughts and ideas, when this concept struck me.  I am called to prepare for times "as in the days of Noah."  For those planning on a second Exodus, perhaps I don't see it, because it's not the plan for me.  As for those who are given dreams of finding provisions, I'm sure when the anarchy does get crazy, there will be all sorts of things discovered.  And for those who have the faith for falling manna, imagine how many people they could encourage and help!  

We are each given a measure of faith, and as we are called to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling, it's time we make very sure, we understand the plan of our Creator, for us as an individual.  We need to make absolute certain that we are not being presumptuous and calling it "faith."  We must also realize our Heavenly Father can be glorified in different ways, and different ways all at once!  The peace and unity isn't going to come by all of us doing the same thing, but by all of us being obedient in the specific thing to which we are called!

Messiah's words to Peter in John 21, so resonated in my spirit and brought peace.   Peter seeing him saith to Y'hshuwah, Lord, and what shall this man do?  Y'hshuwah saith unto him, If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee? follow thou me.