Staying Home

I've been blessed to have a life in which I don't need a vacation, and I still work . . . but this past month has been very unsettling, exhausting, and what I consider unproductive.  Since I'm not retired and I don't plan to do so, I was determined to figure out just what my problem was.  Yesterday, for the first time in over 10 years, I thought "I need a vacation." Then it dawned on me . . . for the past month or more, I've made two extra trips to town a week, every week!  As I thought about it, I realized it was the trips to town from which I needed a vacation!

My work schedule is usually ordered and pretty accomplished, but it seems since the first week of May, I've just been chasing my tail.  I had such big plans for how I'd spend my time while the land rested for Shemitah, and now here it is the middle of June and I'm still trying to catch up from the first of May!  I don't like that feeling a bit.  I can't say I'm really behind, but I feel a lack of accomplishment and that doesn't sit well with me.  Six days a week, at the end of the day, I want to be able to look back at the day and feel accomplished.  When I make a "to do" list, I want to see check marks!  It's not that I haven't had things to do in town, like mower shopping, extra orders to ship, and a few really awesome opportunities, but I've found myself just too tired to catch up around here when I land.

Facing the reality that I had to give up on one of milk goats was not easy.  I really liked her, but she was a lousy mother, a terrible fit for the herd and even after a month, milking was still a contact sport.  Feeling defeated wasn't easy, until Abba gently reminded me that the preparation was to be practical and sometimes we love someone or something that simply won't work out.  We have to pick ourselves up and move on.  Upon facing that difficult fact, I did prepare to move forward and have.  Now, to reward all my due diligence, I plan to stay on the place all week!  I don't plan to leave the place, at all!  My lists are already started and I can envision the projects.

I am blessed to have a life that needs no vacation and blessed to live in a place that I feel no need to leave to take a break.  I'm taking a vacation from being gone!   I may even post a few photos on social media with the caption, "Wish you were here!"