If I had a dollar for every time I heard that comment, I'd never have to work a day in my life! Since I went into ministry, I've received so many suggestions as to what I should be doing with my life. Then of course, there are also the remarks as to how I can do this better. Granted, I'm not perfect, but the sources of the remarks, much less the suggestions are enough to keep me on this path until further notice from Higher Up, and I do mean HIGHER UP! So far, the indication is, I'm not finished, but to keep moving in this direction; which is seeking Him.
Even before I was serving YHWH, acquiring and amassing just wasn't my deal. Enjoying a few experiences were great as the opportunities arose, but basically, I'm more of a loner, which I shouldn't probably put in writing now, so I didn't really have a great need for much beyond my basics, but then also, before I was serving YHWH, I wasn't living the life I was created for, and sadly; I was religiously influenced to believe I'd missed it, so what was the point of searching?
Then, in an upper room in old Victorian house, I heard the voice of my Creator. I was moved by His Spirit and the Messiah I'd met years ago, still outstretched his hand, saying, "Follow me." This time, I didn't get any religious opinions, I simply reached back to Him. I then heard, "Are you ready to lay down everything you think you know?" By that point in my life, I wasn't terribly sure I was clinging to anything, but I've since come to realize, oh yes, I certainly had my share of religious traditions and confusion that had no basis in Scripture. When I responded to that question with a "Yes," the next instruction continues to be ever unfolding. The Creator of the universe told me, "Do what's not being done!"
And the adventure in following Messiah, officially, began. It started in a street ministry in a little restaurant, then an actual facility where kids could come and learn, as well as serving as community unpaid chaplain for everything from a state mental facility to police . . . to now the homestead.
In that time, I've never needed to supplement the provision of my Creator. Even when I've taken a few detours and trusted the wrong people a couple of times, He's never left me in want; although the wake-up calls were definitely alarming! I have to be honest, I enjoy this particular work the most, but He had to mature me to get me to this point, and I've not arrived by any means. I wasn't ready for this, all those years ago, though. I didn't have the understanding of what needed to be done, and what wasn't being done.
I remember, I used to feel so useless, thinking what I was doing was just waiting for busy work. I so desperately wanted Him to fill my appointment book, but that wasn't His plan. In that time, I was learning, and realizing the mainstream religious things being done, are not what He created me to do. Now, I get up every morning, with His plan and a part of that plan does indeed include a list. I had to have some time of just availing myself to Him, so I didn't begin an agenda . . . There's no room for an agenda in following Messiah. Busy about our Father's business means I follow His plan. Although wise counsel is good, I don't need to take to heart everything others think I ought to do.
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